Suicidal Thoughts Plagued Me

Trigger Warning: Suicide, Suicidal Ideation
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I was 22 when suicidal thoughts again plagued my mind. I didn’t want to live anymore. The emotional rollercoaster was too much. I felt hysterical and inconsolable. I just wanted the nightmare to end. Darkness was closing in fast…and it seemed there was no light at the end of the tunnel.

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I called the only person I knew who would help me…my high school counselor. I frantically dialed his number. I don't recall what I said, but he knew I was in crisis and needed to get to the hospital ASAP. He reassured me he was going to call the dean at my dorm immediately, and then call me right back. As I waited, feeling empty and shattered, I looked around the room, not sure when I had torn it apart.
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I don’t remember all the details of that night. But one thing I clearly remember is how the dean didn’t believe I was suicidal nor that I needed to go to the hospital. She was dragging her feet in getting me the help I needed. If it wasn't for my #counselor persistently and continuously #advocating for me, I'm not sure I would be alive today. He made me feel cared for, valued, safe, and important. I knew he would make sure that I got the help I needed.
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Who can you count on when life is overwhelmingly unmanageable?
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September is #NationalSuicidePreventionMonth. I'm sharing a snippet of my story to let you know that I've been there. I get it. You’re not alone. Feel free to reach out and connect with me. Together, we can prevent suicide.
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If you’re in a crisis, contact one of the hotlines below:
U.S. Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
U.S. Crisis Text Line: Text SHARE to 741-741
International: FindAHelpline.com
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Not sure what to say to someone who's suicidal? Check out the @realdepressionproject for tips.
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